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Posts tagged “depression

A Break and Stuff

Today I have decided to take a break from Fangame.  I think not having the project to deal with is going to free up a lot of time and give me much less to stress about.  Once I am in a more mentally and spiritually healthy state (and I don’t mean Oregon), then I’ll continue the game.

My back is still really hurting.

Lisa has called and made an appointment for me to visit the doctor next week…. not for my back.  It’s for the depression.  I guess we’re going to try shoving drugs into my system.  Yay for giving in.

I have one last class today, some first graders, and then I get to go home.  It’s already a quarter ’til three so they won’t be in here very long…

When I get home, I really should take a nap.  I planned that yesterday, and remember, it didn’t happen.  Though, the fangame break should make a difference this time around.  I’ll have less to distract me.

On a side note, I would like to do some more YouTube worthy activities… maybe make some funny videos or do some kind of reviews…  We’ll see.  If you have ideas for things I can do and post on YouTube, leave a comment and tell me.

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Bleed

As some of you may already know, I’ve been suffering from depression for some time now.  Certain days it seems lighter, and other days it seems unbearable.  Lately, especially after becoming ill, I have noticed that it is beginning to affect my performance at work.  With the passing of each day i care less and less about more and more.

I really don’t know how to explain it with any more detail.  The psyche of it all fluctuates throughout the day.   I could explain more specifically how I feel but that may change by the time you read this.

Part of me is tired and scared.  Another part of me just doesn’t care.