Hold on. I need to get some more medicine.
I’m back. I also put some beef on the stove for dinner.
I’m a bit disoriented today. I’ve slept most of the day. Got up between 7-8 this morning and was up for a little while, but then went back to bed. Didn’t get up until after 3 in the afternoon. I would have stayed in bed but this is now the hottest part of the day to be in the house, and having no cooler in the bedroom, it was simply too hot to stay in there.
I’ve also acquired some medicine containing codeine. Thanks to the friend who gave it to me. It did help me sleep, and it does seem to help me cough a lot less. I don’t think it’ll actually CURE me, but if I cough less then my throat won’t be so irritated. I’ve reached the point where I am now coughing up blood.
Well I guess I’d better go babysit my meal.
Today is day 12 on Paxil. Lisa says she’s noticing a difference, outwardly. She says that I still get irritated but I get over it much more quickly, and she also seems to think it has improved my overall sociability. It’s hard for me to tell from inside.
My stomach hurts this morning. I don’t know if it’s something I ate or if it’s the medicine, or just something else completely. I had a bowl of frosted shredded wheat cereal and some orange juice. That’s not bad at all.
My restroom experiences have been more frequent since I started taking the Paxil. Additionally, my poop has been more broken up and not very solid. Too much info? You’ll live.
I did something completely unprecedented a few days ago. I am normally extremely picky about who I have as friends on facebook. I only had a small handful of them. However, I decided to go out on a limb and just add a ton of people from my “suggestions” page. These are not exactly random people. I may not know them, but apparently they are friends OF friends and facebook suggests that I add them, so I obliged this time around. My number of facebook friends doubled within 24 hours. Haha…
I’m missing church right now because I’m not feeling well… I don’t like missing church. I will be reading James chapter 2 today since I am staying home.
Today I have decided to take a break from Fangame. I think not having the project to deal with is going to free up a lot of time and give me much less to stress about. Once I am in a more mentally and spiritually healthy state (and I don’t mean Oregon), then I’ll continue the game.
My back is still really hurting.
Lisa has called and made an appointment for me to visit the doctor next week…. not for my back. It’s for the depression. I guess we’re going to try shoving drugs into my system. Yay for giving in.
I have one last class today, some first graders, and then I get to go home. It’s already a quarter ’til three so they won’t be in here very long…
When I get home, I really should take a nap. I planned that yesterday, and remember, it didn’t happen. Though, the fangame break should make a difference this time around. I’ll have less to distract me.
On a side note, I would like to do some more YouTube worthy activities… maybe make some funny videos or do some kind of reviews… We’ll see. If you have ideas for things I can do and post on YouTube, leave a comment and tell me.