For a while now… definitely months, though I’m not sure how many… I’ve had a strange issue with my left eye. It’s hard to explain but I’ll try.
A long time ago I had discovered that if I plug my nose and close my mouth but try to apply air pressure from my lungs, some of the pressure would be released from behind my left eye. That’s right. Air would come out from behind my eye. It was a very, very strange feeling. I didn’t do it often. I only did it on purpose maybe twice.
As strange as it was I shrugged it off… put it out of my mind. However, now I’m having more issues. After I have slept for a while, there is usually much more fluid produced by my left eye (some people call it “eye boogers” or simply “sleep in your eye”) than normal. Sometimes it bothers me for hours. I remember one day in particular in which my eyelid was swollen almost all day and was sensitive to the touch and hurt. That only happened once. However, the irritation is nearly every time I wake up.
It hasn’t happened in a while, but I remember months ago when I tried blowing my nose and I swear some of the mucus came out from behind my eye. Just a tiny bit. Sounds gross, right? Yeah well it’s a lot more weird than it is gross. It could have just been air and the fluid was already there but I don’t remember, honestly. The point is, I’m not sure what the problem is.
Now, my eye itself is fine. No problems with vision or anything like that. It’s just this odd connection between what I believe to be my sinuses and my “eye cavity.” It’s as if they are connected. Is that normal? I haven’t looked it up yet. I suppose I could try to start taking some kind of allergy medication to see if it helps.
Anyway, speaking of eyes, I’ve actually had trouble keeping mine open for the past few hours so I’m going to go to bed.
Last night I had a really strange dream. Okay, so everybody has really strange dreams, but I’m going to tell you about this one. It was oddly vivid.
As with most dreams, as vivid as it may have been, I can only remember certain aspects of it. I remember it was set up like a movie… but it wasn’t so much as I was IN the movie, but more like I was the camera. Like, it was like I was watching it, but I was also THERE on the scene… does that make sense? Nobody interacted with me, though. I was just watching.
I remember Billy Bob Thornton. I guess he was the bad guy in the movie. I don’t even remember why. I also remember a little girl… I think it was one of the Olsen Twins, like Michelle from Full House. She was about that very young age, too. Young but smart. There were many others but I cannot remember them clearly enough. I remember a scene where the girl was in a room, and I think she was being held as a prisoner of some sort… or something… some kind of oppression. Billy Bob was in there, and he was yelling at her or maybe just talking, but it wasn’t nice. I’d say the strangest part was that he was totally naked. Yeah.. and you could see everything. I averted my eyes but it was like one of those surprise scenes in a movie where once you realize what’s on the screen and look away, it’s too late… you saw it. Scarred for life.
So there were many, many scenes in different places with lots of different people, but I only remember scenes where someone was trying to get the little girl to say something about that guy being naked in front of her, so as to get him in trouble with the authorities. It’s weird though, because for some reason she couldn’t just GO to the authorities, she could only talk to him and she’d have to say it when someone important was in the room listening. She’d have to say something like “I wonder what they would think if they knew you were in the room naked with me!” and then I guess someone would have to be like “OMG” and then he’d get in trouble or something. Anyway, eventually she did say something like that but unfortunately all of the other people in the room were his henchmen or something and didn’t care…
I also saw Will Smith and I was able to say hi to him but he was not a major part of this movie. He was just sitting at a table.
I think I should be careful what combination of meds I take before going to sleep.